THE PERNICIOUS UNIFICATIONIST DISTORTING MOLD

In a world plagued with confusion and conflicts, it was such a great relief to find a meaningful frame of mind commonly shared by a group of loving people.

All these nice people had given up their former activities (jobs or studies). They had separated from their cherished ones (family, spouse and friends) to share a hopeful vision with the rest of humankind (including me).  I was then one of these millions of humans, completely ignorant of the amazing spiritual enlightenment Sun Myung Moon pretended to bring to the world.

Responding to a kind invitation from lovely people, I was warmly welcome. In this pleasant atmosphere, the DP message which was succinctly shared at that time appeared quite meaningful to me. It seemed to provide an inspiring sense of purpose to my young unfulfilled life of idealistic student. It sounded like a satisfying answer to my genuine spiritual search.

 I considered the love I received there was indeed “true love”, coming from God Himself who cared for my wellbeing and complete flowering. Undoubtedly, God was showing me through this movement the best possible way to develop my given potential and make the world benefit from it. This became my motivation to join the UC.

At that time I was not able to catch that this “true love” was also a practical mean to fulfill a numerical recruiting objective that had been given to UM members. A failure to reach that goal would have had cosmic consequences. I would surely never have imagined I was so precious.

Without noticing it, I had been fascinated by an idealized and distorted reality. Under the banner of “love” I had actually received both a subtle lot of psychological pressure and a basketful of sweet lies. That’s how the UM was efficiently promoting the embellished and exaggerated legends about Sun Myung Moon.

Having lost my status of a potential recruit, and the great amount of attention it implies, I became a member that needed to be firmly educated and molded as a heavenly soldier. To chase away my fallen habits, my worldly humanistic ways of thinking and my unconscious evil influences.

I was now granted the glorious title of “servant of servants” and given the appropriate shoes to walk the path…

This new status would be for just a short while, since the providence was mathematically unfolding at a steady pace according to Sun Myung Moon’s infallible prediction. He himself had the perfect knowledge of the mysterious heavenly numbers that were governing God’s providence. I should never forget that. Furthermore I was constantly reminded of how much SMM had suffered, more than anyone else in human history, to discover all these secrets.

In order to grasp this precious providential understanding, I had every single day to study and know by heart the UM Completed Testament. It was supposed to be God’s direct message. It was then the crystal clear revealed truth for our time. The fact that this DP teaching was based on a mixture of pure myths and unethical biblical stories did not bother any longer my now choked critical mind. The simplest logical questioning would be a lack of faith and a dangerous satanic attack I should immediately repent for.

I was then ripe to understand the providential UM subtleties that were “necessary” for the fulfillment of the Great Cause: The white lies practice and the sincere regular delivery of deceitful empty promises (sometimes labelled heavenly deception). It was all for the unlimited benefit of humankind, including our ancestors who were sometimes so great and sometimes so bad… like most people I guess.

Bit by bit I fully assimilated the Moon talk. This peculiar gibberish went much beyond the North Korean brainwashing and usual propaganda tactics. It had the particularity to focus every thought, feeling and action on SMM. From Monday to Sunday, the unavoidable recurrent words were:  “Father said”, «according to Jacob’s course”, “Satan invaded», «If Adam and Eve», “if Christianity” or “in order to pay indemnity” and its synonymous “in order to start a new special condition”…

Everything justified the necessity to pay more money in order to chastise my fallen nature; or to save my ancestors; or to make up for my unworthiness. I had such a privilege to obey and serve SMM. He had sacrificed so much for me and the world. To be scolded again and again and to be pushed by him to sacrifice always more was an expression of true love. I should eternally be grateful for that.

So, at that stage, I was fully equipped. I was perfectly shaped as a proud dedicated member. I was ready to face any “persecution”. I was able to resist to the “lies” coming from the “old world” that would try to shake my “faith” in SMM…

That’s how I became an interchangeable perfect molded Unificationist. I was ready to be (mis)used for any “providential” mission.

Years later, I somehow could finally break free from the Mooniverse.

I realize now that the longer one stayed in the Unificationist mold, the longer it takes to recover one’s freedom. It takes time to be totally liberated from this pernicious distorting mold and standardized personality shaping.

The UM automatic thought mechanism is the result of years of indoctrination. It can’t be changed easily. The members of the now separated Unificationist branches (the Han mother, H1 or H2) are actually all perpetuating the same miserable pattern: the proud acceptance to remain dedicated slaves within an idealized totalitarian guru land.

Probably none of these members will read this post. Anyway I sincerely hope the day will come when they’ll be able to go beyond their twisted Mooniverse, free from fear and free from any bitterness.